It's a boy

Dear Nolan,
When you were still in my tummy, I used the ultrasound machine at work to peak inside my stomach and see you. I wanted see your cute little face and your tiny fingers and toes. I also wanted to see if I could tell if you were a girl or a boy. I wanted a girl so Brooklyn could have a sister. It was a Sunday night. I wasn't very skilled at working the ultrasound machine and there was no one else around that knew how to work it any better than I did. I peeked at you and I could tell you were so cute already, but I couldn't tell very well if you were a girl or a boy. I suspected that you were a boy, because I thought I saw boy parts, but I wasn't very sure. I went home sad. The next morning my visiting teachers came over to visit me. We talked about how I looked on the ultrasound machine at work and how I was sad because I thought you might be a boy. They both have two boys and two girls in their families and they both explained how each of their patriarchal blessing specifically say your sons and daughters when speaking of their children. Right then I knew you were going to be a boy and I was completely happy about it. Because in my patriarchal blessing when it talks about my kids it says your children. I knew you were supposed to be a boy and that Brookie would probably never had a sister in our family. I was ok with all of it because I knew it was meant to be that way.

First sounds and eating

Dear Nolan,

About a week and a half ago you started saying da da da da. You don't do it all the time, in fact you don't even do it every day. So it is such a special treat when you do say it. Yesterday I was in the SUU bookstore with you and you were saying da da da da. Then you would echo me back if I said it to you. It was a fun game we were playing. The entire time we were in the store you were such a good boy. You didn't fuss or cry. You just let me hold you and you sucked your fingers and talked with me while I found what I needed. You have always been such a good content little sweet boy for me with a bunch of crazy older siblings. Some days it blows me away how good you are. I love you so much. You are growing so perfectly well. I have been feeding you baby food gradually for about two months now. At first you didn't do so well with it, and I would only feed you once a day and sometimes only every other day or so. Now you are getting good at opening your mouth when I put the spoon up to it and only a tiny bit comes back out when you close your mouth to swallow (instead of the whole thing). You still have a hard time with more chunky things. But you are learning and growing up so fast. I love how your whole face lights up when you see me. And you get bright twinkly eyes when I read words with you or take your finger and point to my nose. You can sit up and play with toys, but sometimes you tip over. You are super good at rolling around on the floor. But you would prefer to be held, or jump in your jumper. You are an expert jumper. I love that your older siblings take good care of you too. Brendan is the best at playing with you. Jason is the best at getting you up and changing your diaper when I am busy and Brooklyn, well she is really good at making you nervous. Whenever she comes around you wine or cry. She loves to love you and she usually isn't very soft about it. Her favorite thing is to smother you with big hard squeez-y hugs and rub her face all over yours to get the most love out of you as possible. For you it is a bit scary, but for her she has the best intentions and loves every minute of it. I love your soft dimples and your big wide smile!

Love,
Your Mom

Some things I don't want to forget

You started wearing size 4 diapers just before you turned 4 months old. You and Brooklyn wear the same size now.

Two days after you turned 4 months old you sat up on your own. Lately you are getting so wiggly that it is hard for you to sit up for very long because you wiggle and fall over. You started sleeping through the night this month. Last month you found your fingers to suck on, which I loved because that meant  you weren't mad if I had to put you down.

You love watching your baby can read and when I read words to you, you light up!